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MrMary Reads: Little Birds Anais Nin Part 1


4Anais Nin is a pretty fascinating lady, and as you all know MrMary has a weakness for the fascinating ladies. Mde Nin was an American author born to Spanish-Cuban parents in France, where she was also raised. She spent some time in Spain and Cuba but lived most of her life in the United States where she became an established author. She published journals (which span more than 60 years, beginning when she was 11 years old and ending shortly before her death), novels, critical studies, essays, short stories, and erotica. A great deal of her work, including Delta of Venus and Little Birds, was published posthumously.

Why I find her interesting is her background and how it is expressed in her writings. MrMary as a reader agrees with Proust in his Contre St Beuve essays but it is still nice tomake connections between an authors life and her writings. [One of Sainte-Beuve's critical contentions was that, in order to understand an artist and his work, it was necessary to understand that artist's biography. Marcel Proust took issue with this notion and refuted it in a set of essays, Contre Sainte-Beuve ("Against Sainte-Beuve")]

She (Nin) was transformed by her therapy with Otto Rank, who broke with Freud over Freud’s failure to appreciate the power of women’s sexuality, the value of art, and the meaning of the mother-child relationship. On her second visit to Rank, Nin reflects on her desire to be “re-born,” feelingly, as a woman and artist. Rank, she observes, helped her move back and forth between what she could verbalize in her journals and what remained unarticulated. She discovered the quality and depth of her feelings in the wordless transitions between what she could say and what she could not say. “As he talked, I thought of my difficulties with writing, my struggles to articulate feelings not easily expressed. Of my struggles to find a language for intuition, feeling, instincts which are, in themselves, elusive, subtle, and wordless”.

I thought I would give you a sample of the Preface to her book. I have read a lot of books on human relationships: from Emile Zola and his naturalisme down to Marquis de Sade, von Masoch, Stendhal, Freud, Jung.  I could get into it and the technical and stylistic devices employed to touch seemingly taboo subjects other things but I should save that. Suffice it to sat I am not reading this to pound a couple out  that’s why private browsing is for on Mozilla :-)   lol

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It is an interesting fact that very few writers have of their own accord sat down to write erotic tales or confessions. Even in France, where it is believed that the erotic has such an important role in life, the writers who did so were driven by necessity, the need of money.

It is one thing to include eroticism in a novel or a story and quite another to focus one’s whole attention on it. The first is like life itself. It is, I might say, natural, sincere, as in the sensual pages of Zola or of Lawrence. But focusing wholly on the sexual life is not natural. It becomes something like the life of the prostitute, an abnormal activity that ends by turning the prostitute away from the sexual. Writers perhaps know this. That is why they have written only one confession or a few stories, on the side, to satisfy their honesty about life, as Mark Twain did.

But what happens to a group of writers who need money so badly that they devote themselves entirely to the erotic? How does this affect their lives, their feelings towards the world, their writing? What effect has it on their sexual life?

Let me explain that I was the mother confessor for such a group. In New York everything becomes harder, more cruel. I had many people to take care of, many problems, and since I was in character very much like George Sand, who wrote all night to take care of her children, lovers, friends, I had to find work. I became what I shall call the Madame of an unusual house of literary prostitution. It was a very artistic ‘maison’, I must say, a one-room studio with skylights, which I painted to look like pagan cathedral windows.

Before I took up my new profession I was known as a poet, as a woman who was independent and wrote only for her own pleasure. Many young writers, poets, came to me. We often collaborated, discussed and shared the work in progress. Varied as they were in character, inclinations, habits and vices, all the writers had one trait in common: they were poor. Desperately poor. Very often my ‘maison’ was turned into a cafeteria where they dropped in, hungry, saying nothing, and we ate Quaker Oats because that was the cheapest thing to make, and it was said to give strength. Most of the erotica was written on empty stomachs. Now, hunger is very good for stimulating the imagination; it does not produce sexual power, and sexual power does not produce unusual adventures. The more hunger, the greater the desires, like those of men in prison, wild and haunting. So we had here a perfect world in which to grow the flower of eroticism.

Of course, if you get too hungry, too continuously, you become a bum, a tramp. Those men who sleep along the East River, in doorways, on the Bowery, they have no sexual life at all, it is said. My writers some of them lived in the Bowery — had not reached that stage yet.

As for me, my real writing was put aside when I set out in search of the erotic…The sexual life is usually enveloped in many layers, for all of us — poets, writers, artists. It is a veiled woman, half-dreamed.

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An Impromptu trip back to Montreal & Speaking French


LeClown is a very popular blogger as I am sure many of you know. He has written many great posts, and many popular posts but the post that touched me the most was a recent post: Say We’d Meet.  Read it . I thought I would post a reply-comment I put and then give voice to somethings that have been stirring in my head.

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My grandpere lived in Villeray, actually on Rue Villeray two blocks up from Rue St Hubert. There was a little park in front of his place. I remember we used to take the metro at either Jean Talon or Jarry. For about 4 -5 years whenever was on vacation I would spend it there. A lot of my family moved to Montreal so what I liked about it, was that it felt like a big family, which contrasted my NY life. I havent had the opportunity to visit since his funeral almsot 15 years ago. I’ve been meaning to show my lady Montreal and explain to her why I found Jean Coutu so fascinating. There is a quote from Proust I’ve always liked that really encapsulates my want to return ‘home’ in a way: Le véritable voyage de découverte ne consiste pas à chercher de nouveaux paysages, mais à avoir de nouveaux yeux. I remember when I first day in Montreal, this old man came up to me and said hello and I ran back inside. In NYC you dont talk to strangers especially children, I thought he was a child molestor or kidnapper lol but he was just nice. Every trip we would go to the Oratoire de St Joseph and to Chinatown to this buffet to mangez comme un satan (family joke) – lol I’d say an all dressed pizza, this time around I wont get sauce all over me or the table. I’d be more than willing to let you get the amandine if you let me get the poutine one time. Ive still never had it.

A-la-recherche-du-temps-perduLe véritable voyage de découverte ne consiste pas à chercher de nouveaux paysages, mais à avoir de nouveaux yeux.

There are only two cities where Monsieur Marie could see himself living, NYC and Montreal. For the espace of six years I would spend vacation 2.5 months a year living in the quaint neighborhood of Villeray with mon grandpere Charles-Michel, who we lovingly called Papa Michel.  His father my grandfather was a tailor and took him out of school at the third grad for him to work as a tailor. Over the years papa Michel taught him math, Latin, a rudimentary ancient Greek. When I went to his house there was a Quebecois flag proudly raised in his apartment, and quotes and phrases in latin he had written on the wall. He didnt speak english and my french speaking skills were bad, although it was my first language my parents were advised to stop speaking it to me so I would have no accent when I spoke english.  I had a slight accented and I could not say words like: tea, immediately, moment fatigue like an American. High Schooler teacher called used to call me Frenchy. We understood each other though and would laugh a lot and he when he was feeling up to it would walk with me in Parc Jean Marie LaMonde.

What you may not see, or can tell was that my time in Montreal was perhaps the happier moments of my youth. I had a big family in Montreal, and it was relaxing to be amongst family. NYC was very hostile environment to two immigrants from the Caribbean in the 70′ and for their kids in the 80′s. Don’t let all that hipster bullshit, and gentrification twist the shit for ya, this place was fucked up.  As older brother I had many more responsibilities than I should have. I didn’t have friends, I didn’t play with kids in the neighbourhood, I never slept over a friends house or had a friend stay over mine. I could never take a train and just relax, because it was a rough neighbourhood, I had to keep an eye out for myself and my sister when I took her home or when I was looking after her. There are many other things if we knew each other better I would tell you (yeah you reading this) about that forced me to slowly grow ever increasingly silent, and guarded. Stendhal says that the strongest amongst us are usually the most sensitive, which is why we build an armour to shield and protect ourselves. Actually some family friends seeing how I am with my sister lady and friends have given me the nick name of Papa Bear – probably because I am grumpy, hungry all the time, am a bit anti-social unless its mating season and well you get the rest

Life has been so difficult over the last 6 years that I haven’t thought about Montreal or the happy memories,  I haven’t been there since my grandfather’s funeral, and since that time my aunt has died and my grandfather’s wife. Luckily for me this post stoked up the embers and a small fire started up again,

Either way I hope to visit Montreal again in the months to come.

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Today I discovered that a lady who I have just started following, succumbed to her illness and died of cancer yesterday leaving behind a devastated husband, family and friends.

Puts everything in perspective doesn't it?

It's so easy to get dragged down by the challenges, politics, bean counters and wankers in this life, and whilst I believe you should always hold your ground and fight when necessary, if you get too embroiled or take it too seriously, the beauty and joy in life will pass by without you even seeing it.

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These are the Books I am Reading .. should I share thoughts/clips


Hey Everyone,

As you can tell from my lack of manners and the number of times I’ve exposed my self to consenting adults(females) in public, I read a lot. Those things you called social skills have in a variety of odd direction without the light of social acceptability to guide it both on the and to the straight path. For the past few months I didn’t read anything. But now the insatiable lust to know and understand consumes me yet again and so here we are , or rather like a maiden at your doorstep enticing you with the ill-wrought fruit plucked only moments ago from the conceptually antediluvian but ever ubiquitous Tree of Knowledge.imagesI am like a modern version of Claude Frollo – was a highly knowledgeable but morose young man- but only bigger blacker and a member of the balls deep all-stars.

I’m sorry I went off on a tangent.

So let me know, should I share some clips, share some thoughts, do you want to go even deeper into my mind?  Deeper is better …

 

Faulty Thinking That kills – Stress and chemical experimemts


Hey Errbody

While I was in the gym the other day, I looked up at one of the tv’s and saw  one of the many messages the gym sends out to its members to validate its existence. The screen showed the following messages

  • Stress is bad, many people suffer from Stress it affects your health, and can destroy your personal relationship, work related stress is a kind of stress than over 1/3 ( or some crazy fraction of Americans suffer from work related stress) , Luckily working out helps de-stress the body!!

The idea here is by never addressing the reasons why people are so stressed out in their job keeps them working at it. I dont know if that is clear. Like, for example, if my  work exposes me to toxins every day that can kill me in the long run my first  priority is to remove the toxins not conjure better ways for people to live with it.

Speaking of exposing you to some chemicals Check this out

Your Body Is a Corporate Test Tube

Today, we are all unwitting subjects in the largest set of drug trials ever. Without our knowledge or consent, we are testing thousands of suspected toxic chemicals and compounds, as well as new substances whose safety is largely unproven and whose effects on human beings are all but unknown. The Centers for Disease Control (CDC) itself has begun monitoring our bodies for 151 potentially dangerous chemicals, detailing the variety of pollutants we store in our bones, muscle, blood and fat. None of the companies introducing these new chemicals has even bothered to tell us we’re part of their experiment. None of them has asked us to sign consent forms or explained that they have little idea what the long-term side effects of the chemicals they’ve put in our environment — and so our bodies — could be. Nor do they have any clue as to what the synergistic effects of combining so many novel chemicals inside a human body in unknown quantities might produce.

Don’t worry about the chemicals though. If you exercise work out , sleep 8 hours a day, take your vitamins, and work harder than necessary eroding all the loving relationship that sustain you, you will  still die form toxin but jsut might look more in shape inthe coffin

MrMary

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An incurious Menance: Drones or Tornados


No matter how much we run from it, we cannot deny we are the products of Nature.

197173_449115208467781_957800545_nTo quote from Prince Hamlet, man ‘in action how like an Angel! in apprehension how like a god! The beauty of the world! The paragon of animals!’ Yet this is our very problem. We sit atop this planet in many ways deluded by a false self of dominion. We subjugate nature to our whim, and in celebrating our exalted status we entertain ourself by perverting nature we put tigers on bicycles, and cut down a forest to create an eco-friendly strip mall with designated areas verdant with non indigenous decorative plants bought in a catalogue.

We all live under the illusion of safety until the a natural disaster comes and sadly, with the same impunity we have displayed time and time again with each other, and the natural world uproot lives, destroy relationships, bury memories under feet of rubble. The situation in Oklahoma is sad beyond belief, I do not know what to say or wish for these people to make anything better. To say my thoughts and prayers are with you would be incorrect. As soon as this isn’t featured news we will forget like, many have Katrina, Sandy to name a few of the horrible natural disaster that have rocked America out from under the thin covers of an imagined security.

Strangely enough it has been from these violent occurrences that the Earth has been shaped into the lush paradise that we take for granted. During tragedies many people of a dogmatic religious bent will try to place the blame on this on some seemingly, to them, unholy act and sometimes their noise has the power to distract us from the real lessons at hand.

and again I say that no matter how much we run from it we cannot deny that we are the products of Nature.

923465_497331776988939_1157097766_nOne thing though that distinguishes man from the angels and animals is his need to fashion ever more efficient and callous weapons, and what is most ironic about that is how we does so. Because of this separation from our roots, we tend to, like children view a scolding parent, imagine that Nature is against us. We project our insecurities about life onto the very thing from which we came. Our drowns, like many natural disasters rain death from the sky, but in the most cold calculating inhuman way.  The extent to which we are unaware of our connection to Nature varies from person to person. We are not connected in any way to a machine whose sole purpose is to kill and maim. from natural disasters new situations are given for creatures to adapt and grow, that’s the paradox. Suffering and disaster from Nature has the seeds for growth and new life. Nothing grows forth from drone strikes just more fear and hatred  and the dehumanizing ambiance.

Is it then, with that said, wrong of me to ask that While we keep Oklahoma in our minds we keep ion mind the innocents who have died in drone strikes.

Please compare these statements if you give a fuck

Here’s a  comment from a local  Oklahoma Resident:

I’m an Oklahoman. Why do I continue to live here? good question, especially at the moment. To answer a few points: We have excellent forewarning systems by the local news/weather tv stations. The problem is that 1) most homes here don’t have basements and only a fraction have storm shelters 2) Storms are getting STRONGER. I’ve lived in OK for 50 years and these HUGE tornadoes are becoming more frequent. We traditionally had several smaller tornadoes during the year and learned to crouch in an interior closet or bathtub. Schools have scheduled TORNADO DRILLS. Kids and teachers crouch in the interior halls and cover their heads.We survived normal tornadoes. I’ve spent many hours both as a student and teacher crouched in school halls during both drills and actual storm events. But this was a monster event that was not the normal tornado. Since today’s storm path followed much the same path as those in 1999 and 2003,maybe nothing should be rebuilt in that area. Make it a park. Call it Tornado Alley. Build more storm shelters. They will probably be doing a booming business. We need to learn from these tragedies and adapt. Very scary.

Comment from a Drone Survivor, taken from here

I interviewed a woman whose husband was killed in that strike. The day of the strike, he went to the souk to look for a job. He was a jobless man; he was working day by day. The woman was so happy, she said today her husband will find work and he’ll come home in the afternoon with food for their four kids. Unfortunately, she learned later that he was killed. It was one of the most tragic cases where a U.S. strike killed innocent civilians.

There was no working hospital around that strike for civilian victims. So, neighbors carried the victims to the local post office around the corner; that was the only space available to carry so many civilian victims. It became a makeshift hospital, because the real hospital was bombed. I visited this “hospital” [the post office] and I said, “This is anything but a hospital.” It was full of trash; there was no equipment – I mean it was a post office that became uglier, dirtier. If you went in and weren’t injured, you’d walk out of it with diseases and infections. It was one of the worst places I’ve seen. I’ve never seen a toilet as bad as the one I saw in this “hospital.” It’s a tragic place.

Also, even after a month, the site of the strike was so fresh that I could still see some flesh and blood of civilian victims in the sand. Nothing has been done for these people. Not even an apology almost one year after the strike. Every single person I interviewed said Al-Arshani was not AQAP. Whether he was not, there was a massacre of civilians that had nothing to do with him.

You mentioned Yemeni people are now terrified. What are the persistent psychological effects of such strikes? 

There’s a man from the middle of Yemen who said that the mothers used to scare the children by saying, “You better go to bed now, or else I’ll call your father!” Now, they say, “We’re going to call the planes!” The U.S. has changed the whole local perception and you have changed the culture. It’s like the children in America are waiting for Santa to come from the sky and give them presents. Now, in Yemen, the children are waiting for a different type of American Santa – he comes from the sky to drop bombs. That’s the type of gifts Yemeni kids get. In Iraq, it’s different; those people can see the U.S. soldiers. If they don’t like you, they can at least have a conversation with that soldier. You can speak with them. Here, you’re just bombing and running away, and bombing and running away.

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Postcard News:This is the next Batch going out


2013-05-19 12.32.32For the last batch of the post-cards I went to the Metropolitan Museum of Art to pic out some specific themed post cards. This week I picked postcards of famous writers and of course one required post card about NYC. In the past I have sent post cards to

  • Portland, Oregon
  • The Netherlands

but this week I will be sending postcards to Friends/Bloggers in

  • China
  • Louisiana (USA)
  • Ohio (USA)
  • Georgia (USA),
  • Florida (USA)
  • The Philippines

I thought it would be stupid to just send the same stupid NYC touristic type of post cards. I wanted to make these postcards personal and different from the normal one’s everyone gets. The first theme was about aesthetics. Each postcard sent depicted a unique aesthetic take of the world around us. There was a nice artistic depiction of Central park in NYC – the heart of the City, there was the Pygmalion Painting by Gerome, Cypresses by Van Gogh. I could go into the meaning of his seeming haphazard coming together of postcards but I will leave that to you. These set of cards depict authors Mark Twain, James Joyce, and William Burroughs, the actor Sean Connery and a basic NYC post card. As I prepare the next set of cards I will tell you about these one’s of course. I may even make my own post cards series basked on my peregrination through the city.

Around the World in 80 Postcards Project

When I was younger I used to love to read Jules Vernes, he was a writer of the impossible, the father of science fiction. One book of his I never read was Around the World in 80 days. I just couldn’t get into it. Even though I haven’t read it I really find it inspiring. One can circle the world in less than 80 days of course but what is more important is that through the internet one’s ideas and experiences can touch a wealth of people simultaneously. Through this blog I have spoken to people all over the world and these conversations have enriched my life to be honest. So I am going to try to send as many post cards to as many readers as fellow bloggers as I can. If I continue to send three per week by the end of the year I should be able to send 156 hopefully . I think in about a year an half time I can reach 80 countries.

The Goal

The Internet is a reflection of the world. It is fragmented and estranged from itself. One can find racism, sexism, ageism just as easily on the net as one can in life. The internet has it dark side too, it is often times an easy access to illegal tracking and all sorts of uncool stuff. One thing I have seen, well one ramification I have seem, is that the internet really has extended my conception of personality. Everyone blogger has a few, that are in many cases as much a part of them as they are an unfaithful projection of themselves or a part of themselves. It’s nice to be able to write something for someone , with no expectations, with there being no like button. This project for me is an exercise in sincerity and an extension of friendship. With that said here are some bloggers I would like to send a postcard to, I have a longer list but this is

 

Suzanita from http://lostnchina.wordpress.com/
sistasertraline from  http://sistasertraline.wordpress.com
Meeks from cflory.wordpress.com
Mariette from cursorymoments.wordpress.com/
Jen from http://thinkspeaktryst.wordpress.com

I’m generally not sure how to ask. I’m guessing it sounds a bit odd I don’t want people thinking I am a serial weirdo that gets off on sending postcards to people.

How I realized that ant and I resemble

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I spent almost an hour today watching some small lovely ants. I let my imagination lead me deep into their busy lives. I think this small ant is still a kid, and that one is an ant who has a family, it looks quite big and strong (I don’t really know if ants have families but those hard workers must be working for something important I wanted to call “family” or “the will of life” or who knows what extinct it could be) .

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Another great post from Levant Woman MUST Read
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MrMary Reads Jung: This proud picture of human grandeur is unfortunately an illusion …….


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… This is the century of the common man, that he is the lord of the earth, the air, and the water, and that on his decision hangs the historical fate of the nations.This proud picture of human grandeur is unfortunately an illusion and is counterbalanced by a reality that is very different. In this reality man is the slave and victim of the machines that have conquered space and time for him; he is intimidated and endangered by the might of the military technology which is supposed to safeguard his physical existence; his spiritual and moral freedom, though guaranteed within limits in one half of his world, is threatened with chaotic disorientation, and in the other half is abolished altogether. Finally, to add comedy to tragedy, this lord of the elements, this universal arbiter, hugs to his bosom notions which stamp his dignity as worthless and turn his autonomy into an absurdity. All his achievements and possessions do not make him bigger; on the contrary, they diminish him, as the fate of the factory-worker under the rule of a “just” distribution of goods clearly demonstrates. He pays for his share of the factory with the loss of personal property, he exchanges his freedom of movement for the doubtful pleasure of being tied to his place of employment, he forfeits all means of improving his position if he jibs against being ground down by exhausting piece-work, and if he shows any signs of intelligence, political precepts are thrust down his throat—with a bit of technical knowledge thrown in, if he is lucky. However, a roof over one’s head and a daily feed for the useful animal are not to be sneezed at when the bare necessities of life may be cut off from one day to the next.

 

Found some old Pic of myself I’ve aged – enjoy !


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This is me pretending to be a member of the Wu Tang Clan. lol Im about to drop 16 bars worth of fire!!!!!

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This is me do an Arnold Schwarzenegger Impersonation – same goofy silly smile grey hairs now and tired bones lol

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Reflecting on Ms. Jen and Tonic’s Why I wont join a gym post


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For me the gym is the the smaller arena where I prepare myself for the larger arena. You may see me lift heavy weight but they are in fact only tool to train my mind and spirit. I worked out for 6 years straight at least 5 days a week. I had a 5 year lapse where graduate school and life took a heavy toll on me and my hobby. Now I am back in the gym trying to recapture my old personal records. Today I read a post from the lovely Jen & Tonic  that made me laugh and cry. It was her lovely post: Why I Won’t Join a Gym . She listed some reasons why she doesnt like gyms/ fitness factories, two of which in particular affected me:

  1. Witnessing guys staring at themselves in the mirror while lifting weights
  2. Feeling embarrassed for that one guy who thinks it’s okay for dudes to use elliptical machines

I look a the mirror to better my form, make sure I’m suppinating my wrists enough to cause a peak contraction, Or making sure I’m not rounding my back or causing inadvertent spinal compression while performing a movement, and many more things. Most people, the majority of people perform exercises incorrectly.I also use the elliptical hill interval training after a work out it provides a good stretch aids in recovery and other positive things :-( .

The rest of the post is hilarious as you can expect, actually it’s very funny and touching. I wanted to reach through the screen and give Jen a hug or maybe I’ll give her one in Austin. But I must confess that ….

I too Hate Fitness Factory

There is  a difference between exercising, working out and training.  Many commercial gyms do not cater to those who like myself are a disciples of iron. Fitness factorise focus on short term temporary gain not life long training of mind and body adn spirit. I hate going to them for my own reasons:

  • Everyone there is obsessed with abs – the bench press, the squat rack, every machine at any point can be use to work abs
  • No one ever puts the free-weights back, which means a lot if you searching for and lugging back dumbbells in excess of 90 lbs
  • If You dead-lift in excess of 400-500+ I get complaints because they make noise when return them to the ground from being lifted
  • Then there are the crazy personalities, the people who puff themselves off to look bigger who wear tight t-shirt, and who can forget the psychotic personal trainer whoa re too friendly about wrist deep into their clients’ crotch during stretching
  • Both Men and women do not wipe down machines
  • I hate couples that go to the weight section and get all frisky

The worse thing sometimes are the people and the environment there. There is a lot of negativity, and judgement going on, but that’s mainly from superficial people who, unfortunately make the majority of the membership. So I thought I would share an embarrassing story about one of my experiences in the gyms, not the one about me wearing beach shorts and having my junk fall out mid set, but a tamer one.

FUCK THAT BITCH

My sister lady and I go to the same gym and having finished early, I waited for them to gather their things and come out of the female locker room. I have a  bad habit of drifting off into space I had just finished a gruelling back work out and was especially tired. Back is  one of my lagging areas and I got a little beastly with the weight.

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Rear Delts coming in, rhomboids looking better than months before lower lats need some help though

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Taken one month later after incorporating more powerlifting parameters Made some gains

The treadmills, the way the gym is designed are 10 feet to my right, and on the one directly facing my line of sight is some very heavy lady sweating profusely. I’m standing there oblivious to life  and she thinks I am some kind of creep looking at her.  MrMary loves women in all colors, sizes and shapes and I lift heavy because, it’s cool and frankly big girls need love too.

I think this particularly lady must have watched that Chris Rock Special where he talked about black men liking big white women, because she thought I wanted a piece of that action. She started sucking her teeth and cursing and causing a seen calling MrMary all kinds of names: creep, asshole, etc and she starts pointing me out to other women around her on the treadmill. I notice this out the corner of my eyes. She then whips a towel out and covers her chest, tells me “hey asshole get the fuck out the gym”. This jars me from my reverie. She attempts to berate me some more then I say nothing and go sit down somewhere far away. My sister and lady finally come out the locker room and I got to them, and tell them what happened, and they both simultaneously say outloud “Fuck that fat bitch” they ask me to point her out and  they all walk by her machine purposefully to give her the stare-down. The lady felt embarrassed, but the damage was done, and for a while people considered me to be a creep or perv.

Got a gym story, why dont you share it :-)

read Jen’s post here